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{March 23, 2010}   The reasons for my low self esteem

I have had many confidence issues in my life, all of which I have either dealt with or overcome. I have written about some of these issues below.

1. The Bald Patch


2. My height


3. My weight


4. The stutter


5. My lack of belief in myself


6. My career


THE BALD PATCH


Even though to some people it may seem trivial, I was born with a bald patch the size of a ten pence piece. As I went through childhood and especially the teenage years I became more and more self-conscious and paranoid about it.


It was especially noticeable when it rained or when I went swimming as my hair would become wet. People at school would ridicule me and I was forever trying to hide and cover the bald patch even though most people knew about it.


It hurt when people laughed at me and eventually I stopped going swimming altogether.


MY HEIGHT


Out of all of my close male family and friends, I am the shortest at 5ft 4. This probably should not influence my confidence however with people continually looking down on me it did. I have been called many names, the nicest being “Shorty”.


I was always jealous of other people taller than I was. I hoped that one day I might have a late spurt. This never came.


My height affected me with sport. I wanted to be a striker at football however the coaches only wanted people over 6ft tall. At snooker I am constantly have to use the rest which makes it difficult to play up to the best standard and at tennis I was constantly being lobbed.
It also meant that I only felt comfortable dating women 5ft 3 and under which reduces the available market considerably.


MY WEIGHT


During senior school I was very thin. This may have been the result of my parents turning vegetarian when I was twelve. At the time there were very few replacement foods and it seemed as though we went from having meat and two veg to just two veg.


As my parents cooked the food I had little option but to also turn vegetarian. After a few weeks I approached them and told them that I missed and wanted to eat meat. They were understanding to a degree and said:


“If you want it, you cook it”


At this age I could only really be bothered to cook properly a few days of the week and that gradually became less and less.


People at school would call me names like skin and bone and my weight became another area of paranoia for me.


THE STUTTER


At the age of four I developed a stutter. This became gradually worse as I became older even though my parents were told that I would grow out of it.


For what fluent people would class as simple tasks like reading from a book at school, answering questions, saying my name and address, ordering items at the bar or in a restaurant, and speaking on the telephone became a constant battle.


It was a very frustrating impediment, as I seemed to be able to talk quite fluently to people I knew well and whom I felt comfortable with, but at other times especially under any form of pressure could not say a word.


At the age of twenty two after about eleven months of sheer hard work and practice I managed to overcome the stutter and I now help other people who stutter to achieve fluency as well as helping people with confidence problems.


For more information about how I overcame the stutter please refer to http://www.stammering-stuttering.co.uk or contact me for an information pack.


MY LACK OF BELIEF


I always had a lack of belief in certain areas.


I would notice a female in a bar for example and would want to go over and talk to her but would have the negative attitude of I’m not good enough, why would she be interested in me? I stutter, I have a bald patch, I have a menial job and I am very thin.


Even if I approach her and am successful, I would then be expected to buy her a drink, possibly phone her, possibly meet her parents, and maybe even get married! The thought of attempting these things with a stutter and with a lack of social confidence was far too daunting for me.


I left school at sixteen mainly due to a lack of confidence and the stutter, but then had the problem of finding a job. Again my lack of belief came shining through. Who would want to employ somebody with a stutter, who has a lack of confidence and who is shy around people?


MY CAREER


After leaving school at the age of sixteen I now had to find employment. Suffering with a stutter and a general lack of confidence meant that work involving the phone or regular interaction with other people were not really an option.


I decided that I could probably cope with filing duties in an office and eventually gained a position at an insurance company.


I started at the lowest grade, a grade two and the work was routine and mundane. The average time to stay at this level before being promoted was six months. The grade three post involved sharing a phone and this is something I found very difficult to use.


To become upgraded you had to apply in writing to the personal officer and then if you passed the interview were then promoted. My attitude was that if I don’t apply I would stay as a grade two, which is what I wanted. I was probably the only person in the country who did not want to be promoted.


My boss would ask me at regular intervals why I was not applying and I would make up an excuse. To keep him happy I took the insurance exams.
After three years I had completed the first qualification which was a set of five exams. To my horror my boss congratulated me by stating that he was upgrading me to a grade three starting Monday without the need of an interview.


This promotion should in effect have given me a confidence boost however with my stutter out of control under the pressure and some of my colleagues mocking me I became more and more withdrawn and depressed.


I would be invited to social events and would make up excuses of why I could not go as I had a lack of belief that I could cope with the occasion and all the socialising involved.


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ABOUT THE AUTHOR

Stephen Hill is somebody who has overcome a stammer/stutter and who now helps other people to achieve fluency. Stephen runs one to one speech courses held in Birmingham, England. For people who are unable to attend there is a seventy minute dvd available. His main website is at http://www.stammering-stuttering.co.uk.



{February 16, 2010}   What to Do if Struggling with Yaz Side Effects

Yaz side effects are so commonplace that there are now legal recourses available to service the sizeable number of women involved by them. Yasmin side effects are risky and sometimes lethal. Measures that should be taken if you think that you are suitable for compensation are to foremost speak with your medical specialist to substantiate that Yasmin is indeed the cause of your symptoms, then you should really get legal advice. It is fundamental that you save the original packaging and any odd product, as well as any patient inserts that came with the packaging.

The brush off for the potential side effects was so apparent, that there are now judicial lawsuits pending. Many that have endured Yasmin side effects would likely not have even thought to take Yasmin for their birth control pill had they known the hazards. Since there are so many other types of birth control pill to choose from that lack some of the side effects found in Yaz, being fully educated of the risks beforehand is crucial and could mean the difference between life and death.

Symptoms or harm may have occurred while taking Yaz or within a few weeks after you stop using the oral contraceptive. If your injury leads to gall bladder removal months after ceasing use of the product, then you may be suitable for recompense. Yasmin side effects should not be taken lightly. Even if you experience side effects as modest as headaches, they could later become migraines. Lawful action could mean an individual suit against the maker of the drug, or against the doctor who recommended its use. You also may be suitable for money through a class action lawsuit against Bayer Pharmaceuticals.



{July 27, 2009}   An Endangered Bird, Popular in Captivity

The Gouldian Finch is about 130″140 mm long. Both sexes are brightly colored with black, green, yellow, red and other colors. The female Gouldian Finch tends to be less brightly colored. One leading difference between the sexes is that the male’s chest is purple, while the female’s is a lighter mauve color.

Gouldian Finches’ heads may be red, black, or yellow. People used to think they were 3 different types of finches, but now it is acknowledged that they are color variants that exist in the wild. Selective breeding has also produced mutations (blue, yellow and silver instead of green back) in body color and breast color.

The Gouldian Finch can be found from Austrailia’s Northern Territory to the Kimberly region and also on the Cape York Peninsula. The Lady Gouldian Finch habitat is tropical savannah woodlands. The Gouldian Finch is nomadic within a comparatively small area approx 40 sq KM and only move when water or food grows scarce.

The Gouldian Finch is declining in numbers rapid through the last 100 years with no mare than 2,500 adult birds found in thier natural habitat landing them on the endangered species list. Current efforts are underway to help bring back natural wild populations in remote parts of Australia. However, efforts to re-introduce the Lady Gouldian Finch in the wild have been unsucessfull to this point.



{July 06, 2009}   Feed the Children’s Impact to Communities and the World

Founded in 1979, the international Christian organization Feed The Children is a nonprofit relief group considered one of the largest in the United States. The organization’s mission is to bring basic needs to victims of natural disasters, poverty, famines, or war. They are dedicated to reaching out to others through the clothing, medicine, and food that they provide to those in need. Throughout its 30 years of existence, around 119 countries worldwide have benefitted from the provisions given by Feed The Children.

For the year 2008, Feed The Children delivered 135 million lbs. of food and other biological essentials to families and children throughout 50 American states and 34 countries, providing over 800,000 daily meals all over the world.

Aside from giving out medicine and food, one of the organization’s main missions is to help create sustainable development for affected communities. It is also the organization’s aim to give children opportunities for education while also helping out other charitable groups and orphanages in at least 118 countries.

By coming up with self-development programs, families all over the world are becoming more educated and are therefore able to become more self-sufficient and productive. Feed The Children is making a real difference in the lives of millions.




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